Tuesday, April 28, 2015

No news is not necessarily good news

I'm sure you've noticed my lack of up-to-the-minute updates with Tristan.

He finished his course of antibiotics + poulticing on Friday. He is sound at the walk to and from turnout, and happy just hanging out.

I rewrapped Friday night with just plain gauze. I checked it through the weekend but it was holding up just fine, so I left it in place.

I rewrapped on Monday just to air the foot out and take a look. The abscess is still draining, and the drainage hole actually opened up a little wider. There was still heat in the hoof.

I'm really discouraged right now. I don't know what else to do or say. I'm just tired. I'm communicating with the vet about what our next steps are, but I'm barely mustering the energy and willpower to fight this on a basic level. I'm packing, under enormous amounts of pressure at work, hyperventilating at the thought of a mortgage, handling a puppy who is having a resurgence of separation anxiety, trying to support my fiance as his job gets increasingly stressful.

This week I have three (THREE) separate potlucks to make food for, an apartment showing for the landlord tonight (24 hours after giving our notice), a 16+ hour day scheduled for Wednesday, car work on both vehicles, and a myriad of little things to follow up on that keep slipping through the cracks.

Oh, and it fucking snowed again this weekend.

So I am re-poulticing and re-wrapping and talking to the vet and trying to take my cues from Tristan. He is happy and fine. We are on top of it as best we can be. After we move I will be 8 minutes away and traveling out to rewrap him at 10:30 at night will be marginally better.

I'd just like to be a person who rides horses again, instead of a person who thinks about, writes about, and cares for horses.


  1. Aww, I hope everything settles down/improves soon for you!

  2. hang in there. you're absolutely justified in feeling your overwhelm. just do your best to power through and you'll come out on the other side. (i can promise that a mortgage is not as bad as it seems!). good luck and hugs!

  3. Hugs girl. That is a load by any standard. Just getting out of bed in the morning with all that is an accomplishment.

  4. Sorry life is beating you right now. It will get better!

  5. I'm so sorry you're having such an overwhelmingly rough time. I'd be wanting to hide in a closet and never come out again. That is a LOT. Just take it one moment, one day at a time. I hope with all my heart that the whole thing with Tristan's foot somehow resolves easily. Sending light and healing thoughts his way.

  6. I wished you lived closer to me... I would be there in a minute to help you out. Sending you good energy to give you strength to make it through to the light. It is there...

  7. Sending positive vibes your way!!!

  8. Ugh, definitely sucks! Stampede was similar in that he popped an abscess but continued to be nqr on the foot. Ended up doing x-rays and found a pocket we hadn't reached. Once that was opened we were on the road to recovery. Just something to keep in mind. I hope things settle down soon!

  9. wishing you the best of luck! sounds like a lot of huge burdens right now - hopefully they start easing up soon!


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